When I brought up to this woman my diagnosis last August, her mouth dropped. When I told her that I had just finished my last round of chemotherapy two nights earlier, her mouth dropped even more. “How do you stay so positive?” she asked. My response was one that I give every time someone asks me that question: “I continuously remind myself that someone has it worse than me.” I continued by elaborating a few facts about my cancer journey, such as: I could have gained 50+ pounds instead of only 30, I could have vomited every night rather than just a few, I could have lost all my hair and have it not come back like some I know. I am able to breathe easy. I am able to speak, hear, see, walk, exercise, think (although brain surgery and chemo can make one forgetful and endure brain fog), I still have all of my body parts (with the exception of a golf ball-sized hole in my brain), I have a roof over my head, I have so much love and support, I have two healthy kids and an awesome guy, and I feel blessed beyond measure. As I was speaking those words to her, I was reminding myself that I am where I am because of the way I choose to look at the positive. In the state of depression years ago, I was there because I only focused on the negative. I saw no blessings. I am thanking God as I type this that I have come this far and am able to help others because of my experiences. Would I go back and change things? No…not one single thing. Daily, I strive to work on myself with meditation, exercise, affirmations and by engaging in the things that bring me joy–all the things that keep me out of a depression and focusing on the positive. It is a choice and I am so glad I have made it. It definitely helped me get through my journey with brain cancer so I can remain living a life with purpose.
Amy Musser, a Hellertown resident, is a spiritual adviser and the owner of The Angel Whisperer based at Sacred Space in Hellertown. She was diagnosed with grade 3 astrocytoma, a type of brain cancer, over the summer of 2016. She documents her progress fighting the disease and shares inspiration on her Facebook page.