I am Willing to Witness My Fear (Spiritual Corner With Amy)

The good news is that because fear is just a thought, we can change it. It is the thought of fear that makes us feel fearful. When we are thinking good thoughts, we feel good.

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Being almost 44 with the realization that I could be halfway through my journey here for this lifetime, the thought of cancer taking me much sooner does enter my mind at times. It has been easier to forget lately since being done with my chemotherapy and keeping myself busy with Hellertown Rocks, seeing clients and having my daughter home for the summer. Beach Mondays are the one day that I do nothing but rejuvenate my spirit. It is one day a week that I take to just be at the beach with my daughter and her and my friends. It wasn’t until one night recently that fear crept into my mind, knowing I’d had an MRI that day. Thankfully I was so exhausted that I fell asleep during my meditation. Typically I am able to turn my fear right into faith. Waking up very early the next morning, I decided to meditate again. I am constantly calling in a higher power to help me through the day. Validation that I am being helped is usually very quick.

A friend of mine was struggling and feeling ‘off and stuck’ recently. She did not have a focused mindset and was unable to comprehend anything she tried to read. At lunch one day with her I called in a higher power to help me be able to help her. Normally I suggest books to read. It was within a few seconds that a book title popped into my mind. It’s called May Cause Miracles by Gabrielle Bernstein. I read it two summers ago and it totally changed me in a positive way. Thankfully, for those who are struggling to read, you only read a section in the morning and then another at night for 40 days. The best part about this book is that it totally changes your mindset almost immediately. Daily, it gives you an affirmation to say. When I read the book I set my phone alarm to go off every hour so I could recite my affirmation. Thankfully, upon suggesting this book to her, she was instantly interested in starting right away. To keep her accountable, she texts me her affirmation every morning. Little did she realize that she was actually benefiting me.

This morning (my validation), I received a text from her sending positive thoughts and love. As I smiled reading it, I remembered the very first affirmation in the book. I remembered her stating that it was a hard one for her. The first affirmation was, “I am now willing to witness my fear.” So many people push it under a rug in hopes that it goes away without having to deal with it. However, that is a huge reason we stay stuck. Today, I have been reciting that affirmation with the addition of saying, “And when I do, I realize it is not real.” It is easy for me to let it go after practicing it for years. That is where people forget that working on ourselves is an everyday thing. Do not expect to read a book, apply its teachings for a few weeks and instantly be better. One of the ways we continue to grow through life is by continuing to expand our consciousness, educating ourselves, engaging in what brings us joy and continuing to practice what works for us as individuals to keep us enlightened, in a healthy and positive manner. When it comes to fear, we must realize that fear is mind-created; usually out of past experiences or from watching others’ experiences. Sometimes we have no idea why those fears are there. The good news is that because fear is just a thought, we can change it. It is the thought of fear that makes us feel fearful. When we are thinking good thoughts, we feel good. Just like when you put on a pair of shoes, you look in the mirror and if you do not like the way they look or feel, you change them, right? You can do the same with your thoughts. How long you’ve been thinking the way you were taught to think will determine how hard or easy it is to change your thoughts. The first thing is to be aware.

The other night I was very aware of my thoughts because I didn’t feel very good. The anticipation of getting this MRI done was overwhelming. You would think I would be used to them by now. It’s the results that I was more concerned about than anything. Friday, July 21 is the day when I will receive the results. And I will continue to be willing to witness my fear any time it creeps up before then. Are you?

Amy Musser, a Hellertown resident, is a spiritual adviser and the owner of The Angel Whisperer based at Sacred Space in Hellertown. She was diagnosed with grade 3 astrocytoma, a type of brain cancer, over the summer of 2016. She documents her progress fighting the disease and shares inspiration on her Facebook page.


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Josh Popichak

Josh Popichak is the owner, publisher and editor of Saucon Source. A Lehigh Valley native, he's covered local news since 2005 and previously worked for Berks-Mont News and AOL/Patch. Contact him at josh@sauconsource.com.

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